220 - 180 Face Photos...

It's becoming one of those things that I just stop doing and give up. But the point is I felt guilty and I'm back.

I recently talked with one of my friends and she told me about this plan her mom did to eat healthy. It has a few rules and I usually try and avoid things with rules since that makes it less of a life style change and more of a diet. However, these rules seem to just make sense and I think I could keep up as a life style change.

Zohra's Mom's Diet

-Carbs and gluten are kept to a min of once a day.
-No eating after 6PM
-No processed foods
-Only water to drink

These are the simple rules and she went from a size 14 to 6 over the last 6 months. My friend Zohra even said she had tried to for two weeks and lost 5lbs.
It all comes back to my motivation and determination. I have to want it...

So to fuel my motivation here is two photos I found recently that almost made my jaw drop.
The picture on the left was a recent one from my cottage with me weighing it at about 220. The one on the right is me 2 years ago weighing in at 180... IT'S time to change....
My face is huge now and I noticed it in the mirror but not as much till I found this photo.

Just an Update

Been busy busy! I for sure have stopped working out which isn't good but my food is being tracked and staying under a certain amount each day.
Starting tomorrow I'm kicking it back up and doing some Turbo Jam everyday again.... here's hoping with both I can lose even more weight!

I'm working everyday now with no days off so I am tired but I want to lose this weight so bad that I will push myself to the limits!
It's all about not giving up right?
I have been using SparkPeople to help with tracking and staying motivated when I'm not updating!
If anyone is a member add me as a friend my username is: SerenaETaylor

Anyway till I find more time guess that's my small update!!!

Random Update

I have been missing in action.
I have had a lot of work but mostly laziness has kept me from my weight loss goals. But you know what they say, "Fall of the horse just get up and back on!'
So here I am, and with a positive attitude. I have been doing better then before with what I put in my mouth. When I walk into a foot court I don't go to certain places since I now they are more likely to have more calories.
Today I tracked what I was eating on SparkPeople. I also may head home from my boyfriends after dinner and workout before bed!
Over all I'm staying positive! Changing a life style isn't an over night change, I need to change gradually for a permanent change.

Been keeping busy with new jobs and catching up with friends! But haven't forgotten about my weight loss goals.
It's time I get serious about what I'm putting in my body. Workouts have been doing better and better with keep it up, but food is alot harder for me.

Cause I'd Rather Feel Sore Tomorrow Then Sorry

Sitting in my room on a Saturday night when there is a huge party going on at a friends... Why might you ask?
Well it's a bit of a long story but to sum it up, there is someone invited that doesn't like me therefore I am unable to go.
As I sit here kind of upset about the whole thing I thought, "Hey, how nice would it be if I was thin and   could walk by this person feeling proud. Or even see that friend who got sucked into the high school drama could see how little I needed that invite due to being happy with myself."
I know it sounds bitter and I know it's immature, but at this moment it's on my mind... and the fact is, when I feel down and upset, the idea of of me walking by those people feeling beautiful, thin and confident is what will keep me going.
So I have two choices...

1. I could sit here dreaming about being thin and showing off to them.
or
2. I can get up off my butt and doing a workout despite it being 10:15PM and make that dream a reality!

I realize working out can suck, especially when tired and frankly a little upset, but that doesn't mean I give up, sit back and daydream. It means I suck it up, and pick a workout DVD and find my feet!

This blog is here for me to rant and rage but I will get to my dream, I just need to keep going and not give up. And to be honest if it wasn't for this post tonight I probably would be sitting in my bed watching an episode of Pretty Little Liars instead of setting up for a Turbo Sculpt workout DVD.
I'll see how it goes... might even write a short story tonight about what it would feel like to lose the weight!

Cause Being Fit Means The World To Me!

Yesterday was one of those days where I just didn't want to work out. My body was tired and my head hurt, I over all just wanted to sit back and relax and watch pretty little liars.
However, I knew if I let one day go by where I didn't work out and I had six hours before work just wasted watching TV I would regret it BIG time.
So instead of doing my usual turbo jam I put on my running shoes, through on some gym clothes and headed out the door to my local gym, hopped on a treadmill and sped walked for an hour.
I just listened to my music and daydreamed about the possibilities if I were thin. By the end of it I was sweating as if I had done my turbo jam.
I know the secret now... you just can't stop! If you waste one day where lazynes wins then it will become two days, then a week then a month, and I can't afford to waste any more time with this extra weight. It's time for it to go!

So since I have the workouts secret taking care of I think it's time I focus on what I'm eating. I usually try just eating more veggies and less processed foods, but I'm thinking I may need to take a step back and see how many caloires I am putting into my on average.
So tongiht I'm going to attempt to keep track of my food by taking photos before I eat it, then finding out the calories that night.

Today I'm a busy girl. I'm headed to work for 10:30, finishing at 5, then trying to fit in time with some friends, but making it home in time to fit in a 30 min turbo jam.
So I better get myself ready now, but wanted to make a fast update before leaving.

My Story

My Story

I can't remember a time where I wasn't fat. I have seen pictures when I was four and I remember being surprised at how I looked thin just like any four year old. It was as if I thought I was born fat.

I know I could spend a whole blog blame others for what I am, but my relationship with food is nothing but my own fault. It could have been my parents fault for not teaching me how to eat healthier, or perhaps being the middle child of five caused a need for emotional attachment to food. But in the end, it is what it is and it is my choices that lead me to be 23 and still over weight in this body I don't want to be in.

Grade school I was made fun of my whole life for being fat. My older brothers were monsters insulting me every chance they got making sure I knew I was over weight.
High school to me was a place filled with kids with hormones raging through their bodies and everyone just wanted to put the next person that walked by down. So there I sat awkwardly at the back of each class room, trying my best to go unnoticed. I had many call me names and laugh and point, and at that point I was about 40lbs over weight.

After high school I slowly realized the world isn't has bad as being in that building filled with teenagers. I got a job went to college and lost 20lbs weighing in at 180 pounds. I wanted to keep going but I lost my way a bit and after a breakup ending up turning back to my old friend, Food. I ate and ate and didn't work out and then gained back the 20lbs plus some.
My heaviest was 220lbs... I currently am at 218... I want to reach 140 and I want to prove to myself I can fight the emotional eating issues I have and just lose weight and feel better about myself!